Unabashedly human….

The times has come – as time always inevitably does – and I have had to bite the bullet and get on with it.  I’ve had this blog for over two years, and for two years it has sat disabled, in the state of ‘under construction’.  See, I’ve been too scared, terrified actually, to post anything – to get started.  As much as I like to believe that I’m 6ft tall, and teflon coated, the truth is, I am not.  I’m someone who does care a little to much about what other people think; I’m always a little too concerned about how what I say and do is perceived; my worst nightmare is having people read something into what I do in a way I never intended; and I’m devastated when I unintentionally hurt other people through my words or actions.  And I’m terrified of being judged unworthy.  I know I shouldn’t be so concerned with what others think of me, because really, it is none of my business, but it’s one of those simple facts of life, that I am.  It’s something I’m trying to shed.  Which is why, I’ve finally decided to throw caution to the wind, and step up and out.  Because if I don’t, this blog will sit ‘under construction’ for the rest of my days, and my life will slip by me, and I will always wonder, what if? I know I won’t be the cup of tea for everyone, I don’t expect to be.  But maybe I can share some pretty images; and share my musings, as bewildering, or confusing, or as outlandish as they may be to read.  And maybe I’ll realise that it’s okay to be those things – insecure, vulnerable, terrified and bewildering – and finally come to accept that sometimes those things that make you unabashedly and brazenly you, are human.  And that is perfectly acceptable.

And this beautiful woman, she is a wonderful friend.  She is one of my people. And she is a remarkable human.